Patient Love—Glory Filled Wonder

Patient Love

Halfway through making my breakfast I thought to myself, “This is nice. I am not constantly interrupted by little hands gripping my ankles. I can get things done much quicker when my baby is napping.” I then thought of two things…

1st Thought

Is this a little taste of Gods position when He is working to accomplish something in our lives and all we can do is complain that he is not catering to our every need? Its crazy how much I realize now that I have my baby, how I must act so much like my son in comparison with my relationship with God. Complaining often and not realizing a fraction of how much He constantly is showing me His love.

2nd Thought

Yet I think there is more positive to be said than the negative. I also thought of how imperfect I am as a parent in comparison to God’s Fatherly love to us. With that same picture of my son at my ankles whining for me I thought of how when we cry out to God at His feet He always delights in picking us up. He is patient love its not just an attribute about Him it is Him. He is love. He is patient. 1 Corinthians 13 is the love chapter in which describes who God is, He is Love. We love because He first loved us (1John 4:8).  I love that picture how He is a patient loving Father who knows what is best for us.

Glory Filled Wonder

To be filled with admiration, amazement, or awe; marvel—Wonder. When I hear the word wonder one picture that comes to mind is a kid discovering something for the first time. Whether that be something very small like learning how to use a toy or engaging  in an actual science experiment.

In my reading of 1 Kings this morning it was about the ark coming into Solomons newly built temple for the Lord. “…the cloud filled the house of the Lord…for the glory of the Lord filled the house of the Lord…”-1 Kings 8:10,11

Glory Filled Wonder. He who is our Father with much patient love for us is also full of glory. There is so much about Him to be in wonder at.  When we keep the childlike faith we will keep our eyes looking at Him with amazement. I want to be like a kid discovering something for the first time every day. Instead of it being about a toy or experiment I want to discover more about Him more about His love more about the glory of who He is and the hunger for more will lead me to His feet crying out for Him to pick me up and let me look into His eyes full of wonder.

Collecting Sand with a Strainer

You are my portion  

I know in my mind that this is enough, this should be enough yet my heart wonders. Why is it we often feel if we had “that” one more thing it would be enough. It is as if someone is desperately trying to collect all the sand they can…using a strainer. Perhaps they can keep a pile for just a moment but the second they stop adding to it they are quickly left with only a stainer. 

The “yet” in life

“Do you believe that I am able to do this?” -Matthew 9:28 
This question pops out at me…I know He is able but for some reason I feel conflicted if He really wants to or will. The other day I was cleaning the house and in the middle of all the organized chaos I became so frustrated. I could not for the life of me find the bag to put the to go bassinet back into. I became so mad and started to talk to God almost under my breath, “I know you know where it is can you just help me out here?” then after what seemed to be hours of searching (which was probably only 20 minutes) I began to say annoyingly, “Why can’t you help out with something so little?” As soon as these words left my lips I saw it in the corner of my closet. Immediately I heard His quite voice patiently say, “There it is.”

“There it is.” I began to cry because immediately after that whole situation I knew it was not the missing bassinet cover I was so frustrated at but I have been frustrated at God or maybe more at myself. I have been weighed down by this burden for a few months and praying, seeking, asking God to come in lift it and solve all my problems but it has been slow. I know He is more that able to do it so why hasn’t He? I feel like I am in the middle of those twenty minutes of searching and I have been for a few months now. I know He is able to come lift this but He hasn’t yet…

YET… That is the key word I know He is able to and in His time will work things out yet even if it is not the way I feel is needed will I be okay with that or remain frustrated? I need to remember this life here is not everything. If I never have this burden lifted and its a thorn in the flesh the rest of my life I need that YET to be more than waiting for God to answer my prayer….I need that YET to be an Habakkuk 3:17-18 yet.